I can't stop the tears that ain't coming.

You know who you are, this ones for you boy: I sit here at night, in front of my computer waiting for another of your letters. I feel like im stuck in time between the hour of the day you left and the next time we come into contact. I'm crying invisible tears though im not sure why. I want them to fall so badly but i think its for your request that they don't touch my skin. You did say you didn't mean to break my heart and you asked me not to cry. You've done what you've thought is right but it seems to hurt me so bad. i understand why it is that you've done this, cos of the care and the love you feel. you don't want me to miss youbuteverything seems worse while you're not around. I don't know what im supposed to do when the only person that could stop me from crying is the one that is making me cry. i know, its not your fault, i know theres nothing you could do but can't you see how much easier it woulda been on me if you had been here for me? During the day, i attack everything independentlyto prove to you im no push over and that your girl is strong, but during the night i feel so helpless like a little girl as all my feelings seem to explode. i hope you can someday know the pain i go through for you and that i'll be the girl you've always wanted me to be. I love you.